*my piece of Heaven*

Stomach aching, thoughts flying rapidly through my mind, hands sweaty and sticky, here I sit confused, scared, and indecisive.  I get the news that I'm 6wks pregnant. I can't even explain how scared I was finding out the news.. My way of dealing with things is breaking away from the truth, I have to admit, I'm really good at it.. But there was no way of running away from this situation and for the first time in my life, I would have to sit here and deal with the choice that I've made.

I guess the hardest part was telling my parents. I honestly thought my life had reached its end LoL, surprisingly my parents handled it in the most selfless way. They accepted the fact that I was not married, 19, and pregnant and chose to support me in whatever I decided to do. From this point on, I felt so much comfort and didn't really care about anyone else's opinion. I couldn't have done it without my family and most importantly my SOON TO BE HUBBY :). He is perfect in every way, but I'll save that for another blog.. No worries babe, I gotchu!

Anyways back to *my piece of Heaven*, I was so anxious to give birth.. I couldn't do anything because my stomach was always in the way!! My dr. appoinments went really well, not to mention my weight was categorized as OBESE pregnant women. LoL what the heck? I wasn't giving birth to a skeleton! I'm in my last trimester and about 4am I can't even sleep comfortably! I felt like I had to take a shiz every other 5 minutes, my lower back was aching so bad! 5 hours have passed and the pain is increasing, I can't take it anymore. I wake Kasey up crying and in pain, worried for his life, he tried everything to make me feel better.. from massaging my lower back to kissing my forehead reassuring me I'll be ok and I need to be strong. Ok, now it's 9:13am and I'm finally coming to my senses.. HEY NEN, U MIGHT BE HAVING CONTRACTIONS (light bulb on my head blinking out of control!) LoL.

As soon as mom yells, "Oh my gosh its time, its time!!" the whole household runs around screaming in joy and excitement! My precious is finally coming, it was such an emotional morning.. Mom and Pumz are getting my bags ready and baby's clothes ready for the hospital while I'm sitting on the toilet trynna push lol. Only my sister can be accessorising my daughters outfits..! I'm not even dialated yet. Kasey is rubbing my back, Dad is starting the car, and my little brother is yelling at the top of his lungs, "IM GONNA BE AN UNCLE!" By the reactions of everyone, I was in tears.. I was so excited to see my baby girl and new my life would never be the same after today.

We're at the Hospital, it's 10:02am and I'm somewhat at ease. I have the people that matter most to me in the room with me and I'm about to give birth soon. I was only dialated at a 2 so I decided to walk around with my BFFs, Pumba and Kasey.. laughing and cracking jokes my nervousness begins to fade. It is now 10PM and my Dr. is at the U!! I am running out of patience and the pain is EXCRUCIATING! I try my best to stay calm and Kasey is cussing and demanding for someone to get the damn Dr., this kinda turned me on just a bit. lol back to me now.! The Dr. is finally here and I can start pushing!! HALLELUJAH!

After 13 hours of torture, anguish, and pain (no meds at all!!).. my sweet baby girl has arrived. Weighing 7.1lbs, 21inches long, and beautiful as can be, the Dr. hands me

-my piece of Heaven.

Taimane Cambria Keianna Barrington

June 25, 2010 11:17pm