Tis the season:)

First of all, forgive me for not blogging sooner! There is definitely alot to catch up on but first I'll start with a simple post.
Christmas is a time to enjoy with the ones you love most, embrace one another with joy and happiness, as is any holiday right?:) Ironically, Christmas has always been a rough time for my family and I. I always prayed for the holidays to be a time for us to enjoy eachothers company and it seemed like every year it just got worst and Satan ALWAYS got the best of us. Notice how I'm referring everything in past tense, I refuse to let that happen ever again:)
With that being said, every week after black friday, we've been xmas shopping for our siblings but most importantly, our pride and joy Taimane! I was so determined to put in several hours of overtime, as well as Kasey; just so that we can spoil our daughter for the holidays!
As we were shopping at walmart, I looked in our cart and was amazed at how many toys we were able to purchase for our daughter, the expressions on my daughters face was priceless and brought me to tears. I felt a feeling of happiness I've never felt before, I am truly grateful for both our jobs, my parents, and kasey for making my baby's xmas one to remember. My heart was full of gratitude and I was humbled tremendously! I said a prayer in my heart thanking my Father in Heaven for all my blessings but mainly for an enjoyable Christmas to look forward to. I know that the past holidays happened for a reason and I can't stress how grateful and appreciative I am now! I hope and pray all my fellow bloggers have a blessed holiday!!
Merry xmas and happy new year!! Make it a good one ya'll, I know I will:) xoxo

decisions, boy do I hate them!

Hello my fellow bloggers, forgive me I know I've been lacking on my blog! But here are just some updates, we flew back home (Utah) for our daughter's 1st birthday. It was great, as soon as I find my damn camera I'll be sure to post pictures. We stayed there for the whole week after that, being there that long made Kasey and I realize that there was nothing for us in California. It made us realize that moving to California was a good decision to get our family started off financially but we weren't really happy there. Being away from our families made us miss home even more! So, with that being said, we made the decision to move back home. Holy crap you have no idea how stressful it is traveling back and forth let alone moving AGAIN!

So Kasey came back to California to finish work, I followed 2 weeks after to get the remaining of our things. Come to find out, Kasey was offered another job for another company that pays twice as much! Eff word! Eff word times 10!! I was like really? After we already made the final decision to move back to Utah? This left us thinking hard! We were stuck in the middle of two states, we both know we're better off back home. But, we've come to a conclusion. He'll stay here and finish that job, as for me, I'll be leaving to Utah tomorrow and starting work on the 15th of August.

I'm not sure when I'll see my hubby again and it makes me sick to my stomach! I know that we have to sacrifice a lot in order to become happy or get where you want to get in life but damn! This is so hard! I absolutely hate being away from him, vice versa. I honestly regret moving here to California, I know, that sounds sooooo selfish! But I'd rather be broke and see him everyday than being away from the man I love most for months at a time! It sucks because this doesn't only affect us as a couple but our daughter as well! I hate that she never gets to see her father cause he's always working, of course she has my dad and my brother as well as Kasey's brother but it's just not the same. She is only 1 but I know she misses her dad!

It's almost midnight here in California and my hubby is working graveyard tonight, my flight leaves at 4:37pm tomorrow and I'm dreading every second leading up to that moment! Hopefully my family, girlfriends, and my daughter can keep me occupied because I know for a fact I'm going to be a hot mess!! H E L P !!

"spice girls"

Spice Girls, enough said! As I was downloading new songs on itunes, I stumbled across my favorite childhood girl group! Browsing through their songs from the 90's brought back so many memories, like when I was in Elementary I remember collecting all their stickers from the bubble gum packs! Wow, right?! I had everything of them from their 4 inch sneakers to stationary sets!

My friends and I were their number one fans! Literally, we would perform their songs at recess and even dressed up as them! Sometimes that is. I can't remember what Christmas it was but my cousin Nua bought me Spice Girls galore, I had the 'Scary Spice' doll, Spice Girls lunchbox, a shirt that I still have til this day, their cd, and to save the best for last... THEIR MOVIE 'SPICE WORLD'! That Christmas was by far the best ever in my life!

I watched that movie every single day, I could recite every line to every scene. I was head over heels for the Spice Girls,  as I got older, they weren't so popular anymore. I was more into Destiny's Child, TLC, Blaque, and 3LW! Yeah I know that was ages ago! 

As time goes on, music nowadays is changing rapidly! I'll always be a Spice Girls fan, one thing I've always admired about them is how often they recognized girls and GIRL POWER! SPICE GIRLS FOREVER :)

.chao bella.

"cmon on now"

Ok I know it's just blogging but seriously, I hate it when people don't know how to be original! Same fonts, sayings, and even blog posts! LoL! Seriously though, if you're reading this you know who you are :) but I'm glad you like my blog that much! Ahahaha!

.chao ki'o.

"unleash your inner BEYONCE"

OMG! You will never believe what I found on youtube!! But before I get to that, let me just blog a bit.. So, ever since I gave birth I've been super lazy to get back into shape, I know slap myself! You would think I'd work out being that summer is literally around the corner, nope not I.. Working out is extremely boring for me, so I've substituted my exercising with HIVA and this clip I'm about to show you fellow bloggers. In case you're wondering what the heck HIVA is, it's Tahitian Fitness that my sister's dance choreographer, Juahl Agusitino came up with. You don't know what a real workout is until you experience this!

Please excuse my excess baby fat! LoL!

I love dancing, although I'm not an expert, I love love love to dance! It gives me a chance to express myself and whatnot!! :) And who wouldn't love exercising and having fun at the same time right?! So, after I found this clip on youtube, I attempted the unthinkable! I also took it upon myself to unleash my inner BEYONCE; IN HEELS!! OOOOOOOOOH SNAPP!!

Enjoy bloggas :)

..opening for kid cudi..

Guess who's opening up for Kid Cudi?! No, not I, lol don't be surprised! Actually my boyfriend is, along with my cousin Stephanie "Big Sis" Reupena. I feel so many emotions for my honey, but mostly excited and proud! Music is what brought us together and he knows I support him 110%.

My boo has worked so hard as far as his music is concerned and I am so proud of his accomplishments. This is definitely a door to further opportunities and I hope someone in the crowd acknowledges his talent and hard work! Ever since we got together, music has been a way for him to express himself and has also been an escape from all my bitching and nagging. LoL true story. He knows almost everything about every rapper it's amazing, he can tell which drums belong to what song, which song has been sampled and all that other music junk! His perspective of music is really deep rather than broad. His lyrics have profound meaning to them and music is more than just random sounds put together.

Being a father and a full-time provider for our little family, he hasn't really been doing much with his music so I'm kind of nervous to see how he gets back in the zone. Don't get me wrong, never did I or will I ever underestimate his potential, it's just been a very long while. When it comes to his music, he is such a perfectionist, it's irritating! But I guess it all pays off in the end. I'm excited and scared to see him grow as an artist, but very thrilled to see his future in pursuing his music.

Goodluck babe! Love you always :)

.chao bella.

..times like this sooo suck..

Ok, I've mentioned in my earlier blogs that my father works for Delta. With that being said, I fly out every other two weeks to take my daughter to be with both my family and Kasey's family. Ugh, at first flying with an infant was "alright". Now, it's a nightmare! Why? Because she's older and knows how to do alot more, for example, she talks to almost anything or anyone that moves. It's pretty damn exhausting if you ask me, it's gotten to the point where I actually dress down to go to the airport. For anyone who knows me well, I'm never one to DRESS DOWN! I like to look trendy where ever I go, even if it's taking out the trash. LoL k jk, that's a man's job! Duh! Anyways, so I don't wear any accessories, I leave them in my purse, along with an extra shirt! Crazy I know, I actually get dressed when I arrive at our final destination! Ai yai yai curumbaaa!

So, this past week I left our daughter with my parents for just a week. My father is always so emotional when it comes to his granddaughter, needless to say so am I. So, I've been home alone when Kasey's at work and let me tell you it is super boring without my little rascal! I feel useless, the house is already clean, no dishes, laundry is done, the weather is not fit for a walk or run, and bills are caught up with.

I miss chasing her around the house in her walker, yelling at her when she gets into everything, sheesh I miss everything! Here's what I miss :(

She has this habit of going through everything til all of everything is out of the purse or whatever it is she's going through. She arranges her own clothes and loves to rip her diapers out of the box or package!

Our living room can never stay clean with this little lady crawling and wobbling everywhere, I miss her so much and cannot wait to see her!

As much as I hate running around and cleaning everything more than once, I wouldn't have it any other way! This monster keeps me busy and awake at all hours of the day, she has taught me so many things about being a great mother, I couldn't ask for a greater blessing! Love my Mane girl more than anything!

Mommy misses you booboo :(
.chao bella.

..new beginnings..

Life comes with many changes, the outcomes might not always be what you expect, but for the better. As for my little family and I, we've decided to move to the sunny state of California. Oceanside to be exact. It is so different from home, very fast paced! Holy cow it's overwhelming! The reason we decided to move is because Kasey was offered a good paying job, so without hesitation, we made the move. Of course we had to leave everything back home and start fresh! 

We're still trying to adjust to this new life. Kasey has been working since January and he loves it, and so do I! The paycheck that is! LoL, no really it truly is a blessing. For as young as we are, I'm very grateful for the opportunities that were given to both of us to start our family the right way. Well having a baby young is totally not the right way but you get where I'm coming from, right?!

I guess it's not as bad as we think it is, being that my father works for Delta, which means I fly free! Whoot whoot! I can go home and visit whenever I'd like to, so really California is just a home away from home. We'll be down again in June for Taimane's 1st birthday party and we are so stoked! Stay tuned for that bloggers :)

..chao bella..

..back at it..

Finally! Back to blogging I go, I have so much to update on. Let's start off with some recent photos of my most prized possesion "Taimane Cambria-Keianna"..

There is literally so much to catch up on, my life has truly been blessed with having my daughter! I took time off work to be a "stay at home" mom, and I can honestly say that I love every bit of it! Although I may not wake up as early as she does, or want to take walks outside as often as she does, I still manage to be the best mother I can possibly be. So far, I've done one hell of a job. "Clap for me motha 3 times"! LoL.

My daughter has so much character it's hilarious and almost always brings tears to my eyes. I have never been one to be emotional but all of that changed once I had my bundle of joy! I cannot believe how fast she's grown and how much she's developed within 10 months! My Mane is so independent, she's a fast learner and she's very observant for her age. She can feed herself, walk a little or should I say "wobble", she even tries to dress her own self. She'll see clothes lying around and would try to attempt to put it on her head, she makes me laugh constantly! The funniest is when she tries to put on her socks, she'll eventually give up but she's learning so fast it amazes me!

She makes her own self laugh and is ALWAYS the life of the party! She tends to show-off at times but who wouldn't love that right?! She's very playful and loves to crawl/walk wherever her feet take her. This little girl never ceases to amaze me! She even sings sometimes, during church, FHE, or even in the car, she'll try to sing along with whatever song is playing, her voice is music to my ears, even when she babbles out of control!

Mane has this routine I always do with her anytime we're both bored. If any of you have watched MTV's "Jersey Shore", she dances to the techno beat when T-shirt time comes around, she claps her hands when she hears "yaaaaayyyy", and we just taught her how to give kisses.! It truly is an amazing blessing, probably one of God's ultimate blessings to have children!

I don't want to waste anytime with her so I try to make every moment precious and irreplaceable. So far, so good. I don't want my baby to get older, she makes my life so worth living and always turns a negative situation into a positive one.

It's breathtaking how someone so small and petite can make such a HUGE difference in life and in a day! I want to give my daughter the world, she deserves everything and all my accomplishments will be for her benefit and ours as well.

.chao bella.

..how much she's grown..

Ok, I seriously need a camera! The best pictures of my baby are on my lame phone! So here's a few pics of her, she is now 8 months and is such a goofball! Enjoy :) 

..fat girl..

It's been awhile since I've posted anything on my blog, so first off.. Happy New Years everyone ;)

Alot has happened since November, fat girl has grown so much! She's longer and her chubbiness is starting to kick in, ugh finally! LoL, the size she wears now is 12-18 months, mind you she's only 6 months! What a lurp right? :) She's eating baby foods, which she loves! She's always trying to get hold of big ppl food so we have to keep a good eye on her or else she will devour whatever she can get hold of! AND SHE CAN CRAWL NOW! 

Ok, so when she first started crawling, I thought it was the cutest thing ever. I still do BUT it does come with some very hard work, for me that is. I'll be cleaning one thing, I turn around and she's messing with something else.! Like when I was cleaning our living room, I was sorting out the mail and getting bills out of the way, then I look to see what she's doing and she's sorting out our DVD's and cleaning them with her drool! LoL, I have never been so exhausted but this baby is a hand full! Not to mention she's only 6 months!

She is comedy, she talks so much and has such a bubbly personality! Every time she wakes up, she smiles and laughs at absolutely nothing! It's so funny cuz she's not too fond of being around girls but right when my brother, nephew, or kc's brother comes around she is so full of energy! She reaches out for their faces and tries to bite them, she growls at them thinking it hurts them but really its just her gums lol. She ALWAYS has to be the center of attention, when there's noise, she always tries to be 10 times louder, its really annoying! I tell her to shut up as if she were 5 lol, that's how annoying it is! ha!

Her favorite person to play with and be around is my dad, I swear right when he walks in the room she follows him wherever he goes, he's such a great babysitter.. Funny story, Kace had a show and we came home really late! You would think everyone would already be asleep right? Nope, Diamond nd her papa are up watching a recorded game of the Lakers! She cheers and laughs when papa does and its so cute!!

It's crazy how time flies and how fast my baby has grown! Her hair is really starting to come out, long and orange! I love being a mother, much more updates to come :)

..slowly coming back together..

Things have been so tough lately! I swear if it wasn't one thing it was another. I am satisfied with where my life is now, although things could be better I'm happy with myself and the choices I've made.

Throughout my little withdrawals, I've learned a lot about myself. I've learned to appreciate the finer things in life and not to be so materialistic! Ugh, you have no idea! I'm such a perfectionist, I lose sight of what really matters; which is my daughter, soon to be husband, and my family. Things are slowly but surely coming back together, it feels good to know the pieces are mending like they once were. 

All I can say is that, I LOVE MY LIFE AND EVERYONE IN IT :) 

..the man i love most..

With the exception of my father, the man I love most is Kasey Barrington :)

How many young people can say that right?? No I'm not lucky, I'm blessed. They say when you go looking for love, chances are you'll never find it; let it come to you. That! Is exactly what happened to me. I really wanted to wait and write a rough draft about this blog before I started because there's so many things to say!! Enjoy :)

I fell in love with the man of my dreams on March 13, 2009. It was also his very first show and our's together! So this day was very, very special to both of us! We've both been through messed up relationships prior to our's and let me tell you, our love is strong! Real strong! I can't even explain the way I feel about this man, he is perfect in every way! Although we do have our flaws, in the end, every second is so worth it!

He has become my other half and really is! I mean, when we're away from each other, apart of us doesn't feel the same. He has gone through hell to be with me! Literally!! When I became pregnant, this is what brought us so close. His grandparents kicked him out and wanted nothing to do with him, I was so heartbroken. Not only because of what he was going through but knowing I was the reason it was all happening to him. It killed me inside, he put up a front like it was nothing, but I could see it in his eyes he was hurting bad! With that being said, he stayed with me on the weekends and at T's during the weekdays. At night before we went to bed, we would talk about anything and everything. When we first hooked up, I remember him telling me about his childhood! I thought to myself, what a nightmare!! I felt for him and wanted to give him the happiness he never had, and I did :) 

This man is so strong, I thank his past for that. I know I can depend on him for anything and everything. His heart is pure and his love is unconditional. He's always there when I need him, he reassures me everything will be ok! We're apart right now due to moving conditions and it is so hard being away from the person you love the most! Ai yai yai curumbbaaaa!! 

We've been through so much shiz, like every other couple has, and the road has not been easy but so worth it! It was obvious that we both lost sight of all the good times we've shared and focused on the bad that's happened in the past. Fools, I know! Crazy to say, although we're apart and have been for awhile, it has made us realize how much we really mean to one another. I know when we're together again, it'll be the best thing that ever happened to us, with the exception of our beautiful daughter.

I love this man with everything I have, he completes me, and will always have my heart! I thank God for my beautiful surprise!! He makes my life worth living for! LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM TO PIECES :)

xoxo

..valentines 2thousand10..

Yes! Finally, my first Valentine's with the love of my life! I know its 2011 but I thought I should blog about last year's Valentine's Day! It was the best, nothing will ever top it!

I was so nervous for Valentine's, Kasey and I agreed that he would plan our first Vday together. I was so anxious and excited to know but he would not tell me anything! Ugh the days went by so damn slow and every second dragged! That weekend my whole family planned to go to Vegas for the 7's Rugby tournament, since then it's now a family tradition! So with that being said, I was looking for every excuse not to go, messed up I know! But seriously, who wants to be in Vegas and away from the person they love the most on Valentines?? So my excuse was, "oh my boss denied my request for that weekend" ahahaha! Slick I know. Well the real reason was that both Kasey and I knew that I was pregnant and we wanted this Valentine's to be special, so I was the only who stayed home! It was so nice having the house to myself and doing anything and everything! 

Let's get to our date now shall we? :)

So, we both got ready and he blind folds me as I get into the car. As he's driving, he plays a cd with all our songs we listened to on our first date; which were: Beautiful and Special, All Night Long, Downtime, *Valentine's-Ryan Leslie*, You Can Get it All, Stilettos, and more. I'm already getting teary eyes at this point! The car comes to a stop, I get out of the car and we're at the studio; where we first met. Along with this came a letter he wrote for me, it simply explained the significance of this spot. **Where we met and fell in love** aaawwww right??

We get in the car, the blind fold comes on again and on to the next stop we go. We come out the car and I open my eyes and we're standing outside the hospital where we've planned to give birth at. My tears would not stop pouring, he held me tight and close and made me read the second letter.. It explained that this is where both our lives will change forever and our baby is **a symbol of our love** and NOT A MISTAKE. My make up is completely gone and we're not even halfway through our date!

It's back in the car we go, at this point my head was hurting and I was starting to feel a bit nauceous from the blind fold. So my pregnant self just slept until we got to our third destination, which was the temple! Alright, this was a shocker, the reason being is that Kasey is not really all that strong in the church and the temple is the last place on earth I would have thought of! There was no letter for this stop, instead he held my hands and looked me straight in the eyes and said, although we're not worthy to enter the temple, I'll try my best to do so, because it's what you've wanted since you were a little girl! Oh my gosh can you say **PERFECT**?? He literally knocked me off my feet when he said those words to me!!

The last place we come to is the cemetery, we stayed in the car for this one. It's pretty obvious that we'll be together til we die :) this is the significance.  He shared something with me from a seminary lesson (oh snap, look at my missionary! lol) what is the most important part on the headstone?? I clearly didn't know lol he said its not the year you were born or the year you died, it's the dash between the two numbers. Why? Because that's everything you lived for. That was so deep, this is when I knew *this man would be mine forever!* I'm so blessed!!

Finally, we had dinner at chili's! It was such a long date I was super exhausted from being in the car most of the time, am I complaining?? Hell no! This date is the best ever! No other date of ours will ever top it!

It doesn't end there though! We come home and he massages me and we talk and cuddle and I totally knocked out! About two hours later he wakes me up.. I'm so ugly right now and my eyes are completely red, I get up and on my dresser is a teddy bear that says, "be mine", hot cheeto puff and coke (my pregnancy cravings), and 2 heart shaped boxes of chocolate.. Wondering why there's 2? Well, one is mine and the other is our unborn daughter! I look at him and I cry, I never knew a man could be so thoughtful and caring! I was so amazed at how our date turned out!! 

This man has gone through hell to be with me, he is my angel in disguise and one of my greatest blessings! I will love him forever!!

<3 Kasey Claye Barrington <3

..annoyed much..

Don't you find it annoying when you have a conversation with someone but they're are ALWAYS negative or always looks at the downside of things? How irritating is that! Like ok, I can't even enjoy talking to you because you're such a negative person, and you wonder why everything in your life sucks!

So irritating when you start your own jokes and then everyone who you joke around with thinks they can do it too! Like inside jokes? Lol I swear my sister and I have so many, and our friends/family think they can play along! Lol eh! No, that's why they're called "inside" you idiots.!

Ugh ok it's one thing to talk crap, but if you're ugly AND you talk crap, you should really think about killing yourself!

People who talk crap online! Oh dear, it doesn't get any dumber than that!

Ok, maybe it's that time of the month for me but I really had to get this out!! Lol don't get me wrong, I love everyone and anyone. Hate is a strong word, I prefer "strongly dislike". Nothing personal, I'm just venting.. ugh ok someone get me my *waffles w/ caramel&whipped cream*!

xoxo

..couples retreat..

What a life!! Ugh, so with everything being said in my previous blog, I decided to fly out to california to spend some quality time with my love. It was so nice, it really made me think twice if moving out there was really the right thing to do for both my daughter and I.  As of right now, we've planned to go on a break, spend some time away from each other and hope everything will fall into place.

Being out there was really what I needed. Just to get away from home and everything else, I was like so stressed I really needed to get away and have some "me" slash "us" time lol.  My trip was fun, we really did NOTHING at all.  It was the funnest thing ever, ironic right? We would wake up every afternoon around 11 or so and just talk and lounge around! He made me breakfast EVERY morning I was there, he wouldn't let me touch or clean anything, he tucked me in every night, AND, get this, he even watched my fave tv shows with me, like jerseylicious, jersey shore, real housewives of atl&beverly hills! It was so cute and romantic, I could cry! He catered to me in every way possible.! I consider myself very lucky to have such a strong and willing man! I realized how much I took him for granted, well both of us vice versa. 

We went on walks and talked about so much! So my time out there was worth it! Everything is coming back together, so you're probably wondering why we've decided to go on a break right? Lol well let's just say it's all for the best and we will end up back together stronger than ever! All I can say is that we've both worked so hard at making us work, holy hell it's been hectic! Overwhelming and under so much pressure it's not even funny! But I wouldn't have it any other way or do it with anyone else. I love him so much it hurts! 

Our friends and families would never understand what we have, let's just say we're very much alike which can be bad and good at times! 

It's a love hate relationship:)

..on a personal note (:..

Ok, so I've been contemplating on whether or not I should blog about this.. What will people think?? What will they say?? I'm pretty sure every couple goes through this phase at some point in their relationship right?? So fuggit, here goes nothing! LoL

On March 13, 2009, my status changed from being "single" to "in a relationship".. I was so happy to finally have someone more than a friend to be with.. It happened very unexpectedly, he does music and so do I.. I wasn't really wanting to pursue it as a career as much as he did.. Anyways, friends of mine needed help with doing a chorus and called me to come in. So I did, after that night I started going very often throughout the week.. Not knowing he already had a girlfriend but made the effort to ask for my number and call me to "talk".. So we're talking right? Keep in mind that I had no idea he was in a relationship, further into our convo, we're just asking each other questions and somehow it came out.. Him having a girlfriend that is. Ok at that point I was really turned off! Personally, I think females who interfere with relationships are down right disgusting! They belong with the rapists and child molestors, that's how I feel about them.. So with that being said, I brought our conversation to an end along with our mutual friendship.. HELLO! As much as I strongly dislike certain females, I would never wish that upon them or any woman at that! 

Time went on and after that night I made my visits to the studio very limited to not going at all. I wasn't about to go through all that bs again with anyone else!! So after about 2 months, I recieved a text from him. Ugh I was so annoyed and irritated, I hated that I hated him but for some EFFING reason I was still attracted to him.. So we hooked up, oh my gosh when we got together he totally knocked me off my feet! It was crazy cuz in my journal, he had all the traits I wanted in my man. We were inseperable! We would text each other all these corny texts and say "I miss you" every time we weren't together.. Seriously, our friends were disgusted with the way we acted towards each other, not in a lustful way but it was that "new love", the type you see in Jr. High, ya that kind. We thought we would never argue or get mad with one another, stupid right? Well that's what happens when you're a moipi lol haha no jk.. We thought we knew everything about love, little did we know, we really knew nothing. We were just so comfortable and admired the concept of each other. 

Things have been so tough lately. We went from saying the nicest things to each other to saying the most hurtful things any couple could say to one another, we've both hurt each other and I blame us both for where our relationship is now. No, neither of us cheated, if that was the case, we would DEFINITELY not be an item anymore. I've sat and thought about us for the longest time it really stressed me out! To the point where  I didn't really have an appetite, and I really saw no joy in life.. Besides my daughter! Duh hello!! :) So many things were going through my mind like, did everything happen so fast that we're not really into each other anymore?? Is there someone else out there who can love him better than I can?? Alot of things were boggling my mind. Are we at the end of what we started?? Hmmm, there's really not an exact answer.

One things for sure though, I know I love this man endlessly and perhaps this is just a phase every married couple goes through. Maybe this is a test to really see how strong our love is for one another. Maybe, just maybe. Wishing things can go back to the way they once were, if not, at least we can say we tried (: